Never Again To Love
I keep promising myself that I will not love again. I convince myself that I'm not meant to be in a relationship and that I should stay by myself. I think about all the times I've been hurt, all the work I put in, romantic gestures, love offerings, and a portion of happiness that seems to only last a minute. I always say not to go back, especially if the break up was potentially painful, but no, I go back and I have lied to myself again; "I'm back in love again."
How can I never again love? How can I walk from the painful delusion of happiness? I'm not afraid to be alone, or to venture through life as a single man; truth is I've experienced less headache when it is just me and me alone. Never again shall I love, but here again I have lied. Never Again To Love, I shout to the high heavens. Another woman will not hurt me or throw my love away. I won't waste time writing love letters, poems; I won't waste time sending text messages saying "I'm thinking of you" or "I love you", I won't send flowers randomly, or surprise you at your job for lunch; Never again will I sip from the cup of deceit that is romantic love, or taste the sweet nectar of a woman's lips. Never Again To Love right? No I fool myself, I have lied to myself, and I trot down the road for love. Never again to love right?
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